@ Sunday, February 8, 200911:52 PM
heyloo guys !okay . its like such a long time since i last posted . wahaha . comp spoil + busy . keke . okaylah . lets start . such a brand new year . haha . new resolutions of course . just became 16 OFFICIALLY afew days ago . to be exact , last monday . haha . and zul's birthday just pass . HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! got a few great presents from my mum , dad , smitha , cik eton & kak ilah ! thanks everybody ! presents greatly appreciated . hehe . lets just recap what happened starting from last SATURDAY ! lets gooooo .. chalo bete .. SATURDAY :went out to SENTOSA . first intention was to celebrate my birthday . but in the end it was a disaster . bcos two of them cant come and there was no cake . what kind of a birthday is that ? so just went with azura to relax . there was alot of people celebrating their birthday there . i was so touched and it seems so nice celebrating it with friends . atleast they have people who cares . hais nevermind that . it past . so after at sentose , went to lepak at teh tarek awhile and then went home . SUNDAY :went to madrasah in the morning . then was suppose to go for a makeover . but i reappoint cos it was COMPULSARY to pay for a pair of eyelashes which cost 13 bucks ! and MUST buy a clothing from them ranging 15 bucks and above . haiyor ! pathetic ! then also if no size must buy a dress priced from 55 bucks to 85 bucks ! urgghh ! money eater people . idiots ! so cancelled that and we went to VIVOCITY . walked around then took some photos . after that , again , went to teh tarek to lepak . hahaha ! gerek uhh there . then went home .MONDAY (today) :did not go to school today . had a health checkup . so PONTENG . then went home . the moment i step in to the house , all the blabbering started . from who ? of course lahh you noe who i meant . all she noes is complain and complain . she doesnt noe how to say thank you yet expect people to be thankful to her . its pathetic . had a BIG fight with her earlier . she went to throw away my two packets of UN-OPENED CHOCOLATE BISCUIT ! what was she thinking ? she said she thought it was my sister's one . i was like WTH ?! she could have checked it what . furthermore , i left it on my chest drawer . why did she have to take it and throw away ?! tak pernah umor kemas bilek org tetibe masok nk buang2 bende . bnyk lagik bende atas chest drawer asal tk buang ? merepek btol . then i cried arh cos i was like DAMN FUCKING ANGRY ! then she want to take the packet and poke poke at my face . SO WHAT ?! i dont give a damn . then want to off tv all that . HAHA ! i dont care . she did a mistake . not me . then want to say i purposely dont want to pick up her call . padahal i cnnt hear the ringtone . and it was in silent mode summore . nonsense . then blabber blabber . sometimes i jus dont care what happens to her . cos sometimes she deserves it . like her business . never maju . keep on fighting here fighting there . when want to succeed ?! everything people do , wrong . complain complain all she noe . but whatever she do always correct . never wrong . urggh . its irritating me alot . then want to confiscate my phone . take arh . it her disadvantage . not mine . if i come home late , she wont be able to call me . so not my fault . merepek btol nie semuer . then want to say i go school never like carry heavy things or do any heavy jobs . why like so tired ? eleh . SHE ALSO WHAT ?! complain jer tahu . pekik pekik . aper nak jadik pon tak tahu . thats why sometimes kids are not to be blamed bcos they dont succeed or spoiled . it starts with the parents . never motivates . all they do is criticize and never look at the child's ability . they look at the child's bad side . when i bring home a certificate , and its not what they look for , they DONT GIVE A DAMN . always demand for things that are better . that is why WE demand more . its a fair game . i just dont know what to say . its always an unhappy day for my family . never will once , our family sit together and just talk and laugh happily . cos everyday are just TONS of scolding and shouting . everything's a problem . nobody's happy . even if we go out also , its either my mother or my father who will create a scene . shout shout . infront of people also shout . malu gler ! tak tahu maner nak tarok muker . thats why sometimes , i'll just walk far behind or far infront . cos its jus too embarassing . small matters like my brother never fold his pants also will make them shout and shout . suker sngt pekik terlolong . sometimes , i just get jealous when seeing other families getting together . feeding each other . talking nicely to each other . cuber kalau mak bpk kter bebual baek2 , mesti kter pon baek2 kan ? hais . i dont know larh . when will all this end ? when are we going to be a ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY ? WHEN ?
